Friday, February 26, 2010
Mmmm have you ever had that one pointless object ? The one that anyone could pass without notice , but with one look of it ...it has so much more meaning to you ?
Well that's how I feel right now . I think i just fell upon something that I thought i had but never stopped to think that maybe it was hidden somewhere . I never realized how much it meant till I found it . It's not the object that has sentimental value . But the past that lead up to me even holding it in my arms now is what makes it painful .
So many memories . So much to hold on to . So hard to let it go .
Have you ever experienced the feeling of your heart actually tearing in two ?
I think I have but knowing that the person who broke it in the first place may not be the same one who mends it , makes it close to impossible to forget the moments that actually made you believe that they truly cared for you .
I think not knowing how much someone cares for you now is harder then actually living through a life not knowing that if the hurtful things they say is a lie and a way to make them forget about you . If only breaking the ice between these barriers weren`t so hard .
Well that's how I feel right now . I think i just fell upon something that I thought i had but never stopped to think that maybe it was hidden somewhere . I never realized how much it meant till I found it . It's not the object that has sentimental value . But the past that lead up to me even holding it in my arms now is what makes it painful .
So many memories . So much to hold on to . So hard to let it go .
Have you ever experienced the feeling of your heart actually tearing in two ?
I think I have but knowing that the person who broke it in the first place may not be the same one who mends it , makes it close to impossible to forget the moments that actually made you believe that they truly cared for you .
I think not knowing how much someone cares for you now is harder then actually living through a life not knowing that if the hurtful things they say is a lie and a way to make them forget about you . If only breaking the ice between these barriers weren`t so hard .
i know that i have loved you ... at 8:45 PM
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Ever thought about what you did before , hoping that if you could ever re-live those moments , you'd add so much more life to it all with no regrets ?
♥
If only you could see me now .I'd like to say that these past 6 months have changed me .
They've brought out things that I never would have dreamt of .
I've learned more about myself and surprised myself
by doing the things I never thought I'd ever have
the courage to .
They've brought many challenges and situations
that are hard to even believe
that somewhere deep inbetween the lines ,
a solution exists .
Many people call it courage , others call it bravery .
I don't know how people can say they admire
my way of taking things as they are and working both through and around it .
The way I see it ..
is me having no choice but to face what comes ahead ,
to learn things through other perspectives no matter how bad ,
to grow up fast and take responsibility .
I don't know how someone could want to actually take that in
and put these words into action ,
and still say ,
"the way you handled everything is [brave] , its amazing . "
If only you could see me now .
You'd see that I've changed the way I live .
That i've taken all the things i've done
and promised to do better next time around .
That I look back to memories we shared all the time ,
and wish that there was so much more I had to do .
That I know , if I ever got enough time again ,
i'd do everything I didn't .
Is it possible to miss something that you didn't do to even miss it ?
Maybe that's just me looking back and wishing I had done it ,
so that it may be a real memory .
If only you could see me now .
You'd know how much you really mean to me .
Both then and now .
You'd know what I'm about right now .
You'd know the things about me that I could never explain ,
because I too never knew the answer .
You'd know that if I ever had another chance ,
I'd make things better and cherish every moment
even more than they'd ever be worth .
If you could see me now .....
maybe you'd miss me as much as I do you .
i know that i have loved you ... at 6:57 PM
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Monday, February 15, 2010
He won't come first
He'll never be the last
Because he was far from winning
The title of being my one and only
I'm thinking about our past
and all that we endured
boy give me one good reason
why i shouldn't put our picture to burn
He'll never be the last
Because he was far from winning
The title of being my one and only
I'm thinking about our past
and all that we endured
boy give me one good reason
why i shouldn't put our picture to burn
i know that i have loved you ... at 6:58 PM
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities