if i never see your face again ...
then i will find you and love you once more
time after time

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Ever thought about what you did before , hoping that if you could ever re-live those moments , you'd add so much more life to it all with no regrets ?
If only you could see me now .


I'd like to say that these past 6 months have changed me .
They've brought out things that I never would have dreamt of .
I've learned more about myself and surprised myself
by doing the things I never thought I'd ever have
the courage to .
They've brought many challenges and situations
that are hard to even believe
that somewhere deep inbetween the lines ,
a solution exists .
Many people call it courage , others call it bravery .
I don't know how people can say they admire
my way of taking things as they are and working both through and around it .
The way I see it ..
is me having no choice but to face what comes ahead ,
to learn things through other perspectives no matter how bad ,
to grow up fast and take responsibility .
I don't know how someone could want to actually take that in
and put these words into action ,
and still say ,
"the way you handled everything is [brave] , its amazing . "
If only you could see me now .
You'd see that I've changed the way I live .
That i've taken all the things i've done
and promised to do better next time around .
That I look back to memories we shared all the time ,
and wish that there was so much more I had to do .
That I know , if I ever got enough time again ,
i'd do everything I didn't .
Is it possible to miss something that you didn't do to even miss it ?
Maybe that's just me looking back and wishing I had done it ,
so that it may be a real memory .
If only you could see me now .
You'd know how much you really mean to me .
Both then and now .
You'd know what I'm about right now .
You'd know the things about me that I could never explain ,
because I too never knew the answer .
You'd know that if I ever had another chance ,
I'd make things better and cherish every moment
even more than they'd ever be worth .
If you could see me now .....
maybe you'd miss me as much as I do you .

i know that i have loved you ... at 6:57 PM
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` here.waiting ;

    ♥ HAAAII ! AliceBear hereee ♥
    divested lover
    take my breath away
    i'm on my knees
    studying your heart
    I'm not perfect but I know right from wrong
    I make mistakes, I own up to them
    I hurt you, I apologize
    I'm your friend, I love you
    You're my friend, I trust you
    I'm your lover, I won't hurt you
    You're my hater, fuck you
    p.s. do not eff with me
    because I may just be the most straight up person you'll ever meet .
    I ain't the type of girl to hide behind
    a computer screen (:

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